To Whom It May Concern

Life is more than your body; how you look, your physical being. There are so many more opportunities when you're well. 

Think Missions Trips;

Think Paris, think Travel. 

Think Friends, think Family;

Think Social Events, think No More Awkward Excuses.

Think Smiling, Think Laughing so hard you pee your pants.

Think going to the Beach. 

Think about all the things you can't wait to do.

Then just get through the next moment. The next second.

That's all you have to do, get through the next second. Just do the next best thing. Keep moving forward. It gets easier. I have to believe that. And I do. Ride out the anxiety. Next time you feel yourself having a panic attack, sit or lie down and close your eyes. Remember to breathe. Then let the anxiety, the dizziness, the lightheaded feeling wash over you. No, seriously. No joke! Just try it. Pretend your on a ride, like at the Fair, or an amusement park. Just keep breathing, and riding the ride. 

I've never been to Disney World, but I want to. When I'm better, I'm going to go. And I'm going to enjoy a real ride. It'll be great. And I'm going to smile. A real smile. One that makes my eyes go all squinty. Maybe I'll see you there. Maybe our eyes will meet and we'll never even know that we once shared something. Won't that be wonderful?
Don't give up. Being scared is good, because it means you're doing the right thing.
I once heard a quote that went something like this:
"Live each day so that every morning, when your feet touch the ground, the Devil says, 'Crap, she's awake!'"

So live that way. Don't let Satan win. Give it all you've got and push those demons away for good!
You're not alone. You've got God on your side. I love you, and am praying for you.
Say Hi to Mickey from me, and tell him I sent you ;)